Three months in and I stopped. I basically let it drift away by casually having a morsel or two then the entire item in front of me. Yes, the 80/20 rule works but not for someone that has no willpower, is depleted by stress, tired, and most importantly on this new life change only a couple months. Feel a lack of support was a factor too.
Here I am on April 4th, no weight loss in March, and I have a blood sugar hangover. Yesterday started as a new start to get back together. It went very well most all the day and then at supper I failed. Sweet potato fries, a few would be okay but too many no way! Then the DQ ice cream cake from my daughter’s 9th birthday. Those two things with a combination of whatever else few carbs I had throughout the day made my blood sugar increase. Increase to the point of headache and me deciding to take the actual test. 154. To some that may be a great number but to me that means WAY TOO HIGH. An hour and half later 166. It wasn’t showing any signs of backing down. So I headed to bed thinking “what the he** Julie? Why did you do this?” It’s been a few weeks like this now and although stress and lack of sleep are factors, YOU chose to eat wrong a lot of the time!”
I’ve started my day by eating protein and 24 carbs, which I’m suppose to have 45. It’s hard for me to get up to 45 at breakfast without going over. I took an easy paced walk as the energy level and mindset is low. Almost time to take my next test and then a snack. 15 carbs. And on and on and on.
April 26, 2017
Most days have been better but still not a stellar way. I am moving. That is essential in this life with diabetes. I’m serious. It helps so much even when I’m not actually walking or moving. The issue I have is this. When my blood sugar level is great, but I don’t eat 45 grams of carbs, then go for a walk, my blood sugar drops low. And going from low up to way high is the worst feeling to me! Balance. That really is the key. But since falling off in March I’m struggling with getting balance.
Sleep. Sleep is just about as big a factor as moving. I didn’t realize it until I stopped taking my anti-depressants in early March. The one thing they did was knock me out overnight. I did sleep well while on them but for various reasons have discontinued taking them. For the most part I am doing okay off them except my “light sleeping” personality wakes too much in the night! Then the bladder issue hits and up I go to bathroom. SO, early bedtimes are essential and if a nap is needed I should do just that! Easier said than done on most days. BUT, I am going to take this one step at a time, tackle one thing at a time. If I don’t, I will fail.
So my focus is eating balanced. Then moving. Just keep moving. Just keep moving! Find some support somewhere too. It has helped me to document via Snapchat with my two daughters and best friend. I’m not sure they enjoy getting snaps of my walking logs but oh well. They are getting them! 🙂
Until next time!