My body is failing me (again). At least that’s how it feels.
See, I’ve injured my foot so walking for long periods or at a higher rate of intensity only injures it more. But if I rest/sit too long my bad hip will become quite painful.
It seems to me there’s a connection between things. One thing depending on the other in some form or way.
I need to walk/exercise to keep my mental state and diabetes in control. Not to mention my hip from aching. But yet I have to sit to rest my foot, not to mention at the job I hold, I sit at a desk entering data to provide for my family financially.
My feet have to carry me in my daily journeys. One being to that job and one to workouts, all while carrying a substantial amount of weight. My poor feet, no wonder one gave out! 🙂
One depending on another. One needing to partner with the other to be successful. When one is not functioning, the others can lack in their abilities.
I’m a thinker, so my mind questions. Where do I find the balance without feeling depleted or that I’ve failed something? Where do I find the strength to continue putting forth the effort without feeling overwhelmed? Where do I find healing and support in the midst of uncertainty?
It’s hard for me not to get angry at my body, but in reality I spent many years not caring for it in the manner that I should have. (I still don’t 100%.) I didn’t do my part to create a balance for my well being.
I know it could be so much worse and I’m not writing this for empathy or accolades. I’m just a gal processing through words and throwing it up on social media in hopes it will help someone else.
See, I can take all that I just wrote and although I’m speaking of my health, I could apply it to other parts of my life as well.
Relationships. Religion. Occupations. Goals. Dreams. Food intake. Life choices. You get the picture.
Ponder that for a moment with me. Look at how we are connected to more than ONE thing. Also how those connections are what creates a balance or lack of in our lives.
From the “always thinking writer with the bad left side,” I want to end with this.
If it is healing you need, may you find it. If it’s a partner you seek, may you fall in line with a dependable one. If it’s a new occupation or calorie counting app may it guide you to connections to continue forth.
Whatever connection you are needing, I hope you find it with little pain and much joy.