I find myself realizing that just six months ago walking .83 of a mile took me 30 minutes or possibly more. Today I am able to walk that same path in 18 to 20 minutes. I’m no runner and I never want to be but I’m pretty proud of this. I sometimes have to break my walks up throughout the day due to my schedule. I feel bad when I look at my fitness tracker and see less than 4000 steps by 1:00 p.m. But there are those days. I’ve made some improvements in the physical part of my health, a ways to go but I’m headed in the right direction.
This week I decided I might like to try riding a bike. I have this old Schwinn bike that was my parents. I think it’s kinda cool. But the tires on it are not made for country roads and with my balance issues it’s quite possible I’ll end up on the ground more often than not. I’m hoping to try my husband or oldest daughter’s bike to decide if this is a new thing for me. To see if the addition of bike riding will give me a little variety in life so to speak! If all works with that adventure, I might just have to trade my old Schwinn for a newer country road tire bike! 🙂
This week I noticed that when dining out I made good choices so to speak. Did I still eat a hamburger and fries and even a chocolate shake. Yes. But the good choice for me was not picking the combo meal that had the largest size of those items. I was enjoying my meal even though I didn’t stuff myself. Then one evening my husband had brought home a piece of homemade cherry pie. (In his defense, he asked the diner if they had sugar free.) I took about 3 bites and decided it was too sweet and I really didn’t want it. Perhaps that was his plan all along…… 🙂
One of the things I dislike is having my blood sugar level go too low, for a couple reasons. I feel bad and then when I do eat it shoots up which causes other uncomfortable results. So balance is really a key item in this game of controlling diabetes. I can tell when my body reaches about 95 to 90, the too low symptoms begin to show. If it makes it to 70 I need help! But most of the time I keep it around 105 – 120 area before meals and after meals varies from 125 to 145 depending on what I eat.
I am still in the obese section for BMI. I’m still in a size 18 and the scale hasn’t moved in a couple months. I continue to love sweets and I do eat them. The goodness for me is that I am taking the time to pay attention to my body. I am sure if I had a trainer I would be even better off but that isn’t going to happen or the home chef. Contentment with where I have come so far is important, moving forward is key as well but for now I’m okay with just settling into this new way.
I decided today was the day that I would begin to walk 10000 steps a day or at least 5 out of 7 days in a row. That although I want to sit at my sewing machine and finish the quilts that I’m currently working on I have to do this.
I was inspired by a Facebook post of an extended family member, this guy is pretty motivational and is open about alot in his life, so he is genuine. I’m grateful for his posts. It reminded me that the results I’m longing for will not happen by me going extremely slow. That writing of my journey isn’t enough. I have to take the next level and grasp it. I’ve been sitting in the same spot several months now. That’s my fault.
Here’s where I remember that fighting for me is important. Where the life we are dealt can be grimy and yucky and beautiful and joyous. Collecting all those experiences and wrapping them into something of your own is yours for the taking.
This morning wasn’t easy. I jumped on my husband’s bike and could only ride 5 minutes. It absolutely was not easy. But I made myself recall when I started walking. How far I have come in six months in that area. Then I went for a walk in the Kansas humidity which I sweated like no other! I’m telling myself I sweated out that lovely dessert I indulged in the night before! 🙂 The walk was for 45 minutes. It wasn’t a fast pace but it was a good pace.
At late morning I was over half way to my goal of 10,000 steps. I can do this. I have the power to move. I have the power to make better choices. My blood sugar wasn’t too low but it was on it’s way as I didn’t eat enough for breakfast. I was so “in the zone” I forgot to grab some carbs when I returned from the bike ride! But all ended well and I snacked after my shower.
Throughout the day I was up and down. I kept an eye on the fitness tracker and phone. One day. That’s all today was. But it was one day I hit my goal.
Do you have any goals you are working towards accomplishing? How do you keep focused?
I realized yesterday morning that Down with the D could mean a couple things. Diabetes or depression. Both are in my life.
We traveled for our vacation to an area that enabled me to exercise daily, feel relaxed, and eat somewhat healthy. We cooked most of our own meals. I still got on the scale after returning and have decided I need a new scale.
I was motivated quite a bit before leaving for vacation and was determined to keep working towards my daily goals even while away from home. I was successful and have been reaching my 10,000 step goal all but about one day a week.
Upon leaving beautiful Arkansas and heading towards one more stop before coming to rest at home I could feel anxiety entering my body. The anxiety led to feeling in a funk and Monday I have felt quite “off” all day. I do think some of it is from my blood sugars being consistantly on the lower side. I need to find that balance again, so I feel good most all the time.
Tuesday morning brought more clarity but I am still feeling anxious at some moments. The walk I took this morning has brought me more than 5000 steps and clearer mind. Support from a new person came my way and I am utilizing it.
The battle of diabetes is one I am focusing on but the depression still shows up to the party on occasion. It makes it’s prescense not necessarily by sad faces or tear. It carries the blame when snappy answers blurt from my mouth or the urge to scream erupts within me. The expression of depression doesn’t take one route. It is kind and spreads itself in many forms.
I have to admit it was probably a positive to get out with other people last night. To listen to little kids singing and feeling a loof myself. Perhaps that is what helped me to visit with my husband in a casual manner last night or to awaken this morning so much easier.
Coming off the high of being somewhere you truly enjoyed and pulling this thing called life out of time-out so to speak is hard. Getting away can give one perspective on many levels and I think this trip did that for me. The opportunity to realize, alittle more clearer, what I want out of this life I am living.
In May I didn’t track my food as well and to this day I am not logging it. I’m depending on my mind. The physical picture of what my plate should look like and the size of my snacks. Including this with thinking about how my body feels is my go to. Remembering how I feel if I eat too many carbs in the next couple hours I keep near as well. I still eat carbs and not always “good” ones but I’m confident in my abilities to judge my choices.
I think what made me get back on track is being put in a physically working environment. Our Kansas wheat harvest arrived around June 10th and my job was not in a cushy air-conditioned cab. It was weighing grain trucks in the humid, hot Kansas sun. Weighing the trucks meant shoveling and sweeping grain into a pit. So it wasn’t just sitting around. It kept my mind and body busy. I wasn’t as hungry either, a little went a long way for me.
The work gave me the change and push to get back to moving more. I am now walking and doing some challenges on my Samsung Health to motivate me. I’m still sending my Snaps to my pals for support and moving forward. It’s not been a perfect journey but it’s my journey. I’m proud of where I am today but would like to move forward to better my health.
My sleep isn’t great but I just do what I can. Most days I don’t allow myself to sit at the computer or sewing machine too long. A 15 minute walk can give someone a great deal of steps. I’m still not at 10,000 most days but if I reach 8000 I’m happy. I can do this and it’s not for a temporary time. Accepting who I am, what I am doing, and where I am going is the game plan. Also having confidence in myself, that’s still a work in progress! 🙂
Down with the D #5 I will share in a couple days. It will include my results from my six month checkup and how I am dealing with that.
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