Time. It’s time to get off the mediocre train~ Bringing It Down – Diabetes #7


July 15, 2017

I decided today was the day that I would begin to walk 10000 steps a day or at least 5 out of 7 days in a row. That although I want to sit at my sewing machine and finish the quilts that I’m currently working on I have to do this.

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I was inspired by a Facebook post of an extended family member, this guy is pretty motivational and is open about alot in his life, so he is genuine.  I’m grateful for his posts.  It reminded me that the results I’m longing for will not happen by me going extremely slow.  That writing of my journey isn’t enough.  I have to take the next level and grasp it.  I’ve been sitting in the same spot several months now.  That’s my fault.

Here’s where I remember that fighting for me is important.  Where the life we are dealt can be grimy and yucky and beautiful and joyous.  Collecting all those experiences and wrapping them into something of your own is yours for the taking.

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This morning wasn’t easy.  I jumped on my husband’s bike and could only ride 5 minutes. It absolutely was not easy.  But I made myself recall when I started walking.  How far I have come in  six months in that area.    Then I went for a walk in the Kansas humidity which I sweated like no other!  I’m telling myself I sweated out that lovely dessert I indulged in the night before! 🙂 The walk was for 45 minutes.  It wasn’t a fast pace but it was a good pace.

 

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I can’t figure out why for the last 2 wks my fitness tracker & phone are off so much! UGH!

At late morning I was over half way to my goal of 10,000 steps.  I can do this.  I have the power to move.  I have the power to make better choices.  My blood sugar wasn’t too low but it was on it’s way as I didn’t eat enough for breakfast.  I was so “in the zone” I forgot to grab some carbs when I returned from the bike ride!  But all ended well and I snacked after my shower.

Throughout the day I was up and down.  I kept an eye on the fitness tracker and phone.  One day.  That’s all today was.  But it was one day I hit my goal.

Do you have any goals you are working towards accomplishing?  How do you keep focused?

Until next time…

Julie

 

 

Focus – 2017 Word


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My word for 2017 is Focus.  I have already started a sub-list of things as you can see.

Focus

  • on living
  • on the joy in the moments
  • on my health
  • on the little things
  • on the laughter in my life
  • on the small steps
  • on the love given to me

When I came back today to this post this is the spot where I deleted what I had written. The words that had been so carefully crafted the other day, were no longer good enough to share.

Now I will tell you that after a couple conversations with my spouse I am stumbling into an avenue that I’m not too confident about. It will take a great deal of focus for sure.  As I sat in the vehicle having one of those conversations I finally just said it out-loud.

“I feel like I just want to focus on me. That if I don’t take this time to focus on me I won’t get back to who me is.”  Of course the smart man said, “it’s okay to do that.”  With which I replied, “but I’m not a selfish person, I take care of others.” (I am not a saint, it’s just a personality trait. I’m a caretaker)

That’s it.  I’m back peddling – already.  Focusing on me brings about feelings of guilt and selfishness.  The left side of my brain says one thing the right side says another, then throw in that heart-thing.  Deep down I know I have to do this.  I have to do it to be able to survive with any ounce of happiness and enjoyment in life. This isn’t just about depression there’s more but I’m not ready to share that.

Just need to remember.  Small steps Julie.  No major changes, just minor.  Crawl out of the darkness even if it’s just that.  Crawling.  When you feel tired and weak, grasp to the man that God gave you.  It’s okay to not jump in going 100 miles an hour. It’s okay to admit when it’s hard.

So…. now that I’ve given myself  a pep talk I’m off to slay this thing!

More to come from me I’m sure, whenever I might get the whim to write!

Julie