Written early March 2017
When dealing with life changes, whether it’s in regards to eating, stopping a bad habit, starting therapy, stopping therapy, or whatever, it’s not an easy path. Although I do believe a support system is essential it really comes down to the individual. No one is going to move you forward, they might assist but ultimately you have to take that first step alone. And that first step isn’t going to come until you are ready.
My first assistance was that blood test that showed my AC1 at 7.2 and the phone call from the doctor with options. I chose the option to visit with a Diabetic Educator named Kathy. I spent up until the day after my 46th birthday eating as I wanted. I began logging food and trying my best from December 27th to January 3rd, then I met Kathy.
Kathy explained things in simple terms and allowed me to ask questions. She allowed my spouse to ask questions and she even visited about my fears. Tears fell because of the emotions I was feeling and she never made me feel bad for it.
In the past couple months I’ve been on the high side emotionally, the frustrated, tantrum throwing, not to mention the low side. You name it, I’ve probably felt it. Kathy gave me just a few things to start out with. 45 grams of carbs per meal and 15 per snack. Going in I knew I needed to expect less of myself. That probably sounds odd but it’s true. I have high expectations for myself and that can lead to me taking the long fall down to failing!
This time I wrote about moving into a different level of this journey. I felt it needed to be shared because only writing about the good or positive moments isn’t reality or truth. I won’t hide in the goodness of life, the ugly is part of it. Just have to choose how to deal with it.