I can’t believe my eldest daughter is turning 30 this month. It’s not about me feeling old or worrying about how it reflects on me. It’s just so very odd to me how the time has passed by quite rapidly.
She was the first to make me a momma. The first to test my patience, give me messy kisses and warm hugs. The first to make me worry about ear infections, bumps on the head, and choices I was making as a mother. The first to challenge me and exceed my expectations. She was my “test run” as I like to say.
This is the gal that is most like me, I think, out of all my children but yet she brings her own flair to life.
Tashley forgives quicker, has more dramatic responses, and has a smile that is larger than life. Cooking is her delight and even though she doesn’t get enough praise for it, she takes care of her family pretty darn good! I’m one proud mom!
She’s a mother herself now, two daughters and a son.
There are times I relish in the witnessing of her being a Mom and other times I want to step in and say HEY STOP!
But that isn’t my job now. My job is to support, love, and allow her to take the motherhood journey as my Mom did me. Watching from the sidelines and praying for strength for her.
The bonus to having her be a mother is the fact that I get some awesome grand-kids outta the deal! 🙂 It’s a win-win for me!
Thirty years ago I could have taken a much different route. But honestly, I think I made the best choice. I would do it all over again if presented with the same circumstances. I would become a mother when I was really only a child myself and go through the heartache, the changes and challenges that life gave us.
Because in the end, all that really matters is the fact that this human existed and she was worth every second! Choosing her and being with her every day as her mother is what I was meant to do. Plain and simple.
Thirty years of watching a life transpire into a million different things and changing daily or even hourly. The opportunity to be Tashley’s mother wasn’t an easy one to start but knowing her has made my life much, much better. No matter the obstacle or joy, she has always been worth it.
Happy 30th birthday to my girl that was such a laid back baby, a little girl that played well, the tween/teen that had to have the last word, the young lady that found her way even without me, and the woman that through it all, STILL has that huge smile!
I love you,